Author's note: This work of art is purely fictional.
I thought that by now I would know what love is. How it first started with meeting a completely unknown person. Then, as we got to know each other, I eventually felt this new feeling. I can't describe it perfectly, but I'll jot down different things, wishing that maybe the idea passes on.
Yearning to be with that person no matter what. A new level of trust, which actually is quite a big step for a cynical human mind - I'd tell her my deepest secrets and for the first time, I wouldn't be afraid to do so. She wouldn't walk away, she'd sit down and listen to me venting, while holding my hand. Assuring that how I feel is normal and that I shouldn't run away from my thoughts. We'd listen to rain drumming sadly against the glass, but this time there would be no melancholy.
Every day would have a reason, they would hold something to look forward.
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But no, this is something new. It's love at first sight, never thought I'd believe in such a thing, but color me impressed. This is my true love, my only one. I'd give away everything I own, just to have this feeling to be permanent. I'd go through thick and thin for this one, to never let it fade away.
I ponder if I have been telling lies to my wife the whole time. Shit. This is not a good time to wonder something like that. I take few deep breaths and try to relax. And then I see how things are.
This love is equal to the one I've been feeling for a long time. One doesn't need to flee away for another to reside. They both can co-exist, just like they've done already for the past nine months. My heart is big enough for two loves. Still, I'd go through thick and thin, as I promised. The love grows stronger, more overwhelming.
I have always thought about this moment, wondering what it feels like, yet never fully understanding the concept but now I truly do. The moment of realization strikes as I watch my wife, holding a pink skinned blanket-wrapped bundle.
I'm not perfect, as no one is, but I'm good enough for this. This is why I am here and now, I'm not just.. well me. I'm a dad.
And I must be smiling like an idiot.
